Friday, May 8, 2009

i think i am going to die of a heart attack

so, today after work, i got the awesome news of someone ratting me out at work for looking at a site i wasn't suppose to be looking at. i explained how it was a link that was attached to one of the emails i had received in my inbox and how i did not mean to go to the site. i was then told how it did not matter, if i get caught one more time, i am brown bread and will get fired from my job. the most confusing part about this whole situation was how i have been doing good with my numbers and how i always go above and beyond from the expectancy. it still doesn't matter to these corporates that will bend over backwards to make an extra buck. so as i walked to my car and i couldn't help but think how much i hate life at the moment. i unlocked my car and sat down and slammed the door from all the anger that was inside of me. on the drive home, i was just furious to think how i have people trying to get me fired, but to some people it is considered "doing their jobs". i did not know that companies hired narcs that all they do all day is look after what other people are doing at their desk. this job has gotten the best of me and i am sick of it. as i type this right now, i literally feel an aching pain in my chest, i am don't know if i am going to have a heart attack or if its just the anger. one of these days i will escape this damn place and find another place that will not stress me out anymore. i hate the fact that i get home and take my anger out on my family, they don't deserve this shit from me. today is friday and i just have one more day left at this hellhole called work. please, whoever reads this (if there is anyone), hope the best for me, i don't want to die of heart failure.

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